Torture

Everyday, every night, it feels as though I'm torturing my baby. I torture her by making her nap, putting her to sleep for bedtime, playing with her lying down and placing her on her rocker/walker while I'm next to her. 

She is only not tortured when I carry her. I'm tired from her screaming and crying. I feel so useless. Nothing seems to work. Sigh. 

But I still love her more than my heart can give.